When babies grow ... too soon for you!!

In life there are certain moments which get engraved in your mind and etched in your heart, you remember every tiny detail, every little expression.

In my life there are many. 

One life changing moment was immediately after delivering my baby, I looked at her for the first time, once they got her cleaned up and they brought the tiny little one to me. As I instinctively cuddled and cooed to her, just like when she was in my tummy.. she just gazed at me with her wide open eyes.... 

I will never forget that look... She seemed to be reaching out to me, to my heart.. It seemed like she was telling me that I am the most important and probably the only link for her to the outside world... I felt the need for protecting her, she was mine.. looking out for her, the fierce sense of possessiveness... 

I wish I could have captured that moment in picture, the image I have in my mind, for the world to see... me and my daughter in our tiny world..

Time flies and babies grow...

her first step, her first MMA (Mamma), how she caressed my face when I had to go away on work for a few days, how she tightly hugged me and cried out her lungs when I resumed going back to work, how in deep sleep she searches for me and rolls over to hug and cuddle me... late at night half drowsy with sleep, when she tells me I m "the loveliest mumma" or that I m her JAAN (life)" and the tight hug i get from her...

Some things are too special in life.

How you love your mom, the amount of respect for dad. When you realise there is probably no limit to the gratitude you can show to them for bringing you up , loving you and giving you the best..

The amount of admiration for your spouse, when he washes the dishes so that you can rest, when he holds your hand when crossing the road, when he instinctively searches for you in a crowded room...the unspoken feeling of being loved and cared for.

Then when you see a little human being for whom you are the world, who wants you to be with her always,  who is in a way like an extension of you, it is the most selfless, innocent, giving and trusting love ever....

And you realize the cycle of life continues.... I wish I can hold time still and have my baby ... just as she is now, and take in her baby powder smell and hug her tiny frame .... 

I wish I had more time to look at her, to play with her, to answer her zillion questions, to hold her baby hands...

I wish time would stand still

Today my little baby wore her new uniform, and got onto her school bus. As I tried to desperately wave to her through the window, I realised that my baby has started school, her own new world without me. One day she will graduate from college , get married and have little ones of her own... I will still remember the warmth of her hug , the sweet smell of chocolates on her when she was a baby...

Again I wish I can relish these moment forever... children grow up, you know.....

Lets never forget to live the little moments of life...

I pray for her safety , happiness and wonderful learning experiences...

I pray that she grows up to be a strong woman, loves with abandon, explores her dreams and capabilities, and stands up for herself always. 

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